Dear You,
Right now, I don't have anything to do. I'm bored and I feel lonely for some reason. These are the times that I lay on my comfortable bed, hugging my cute stuffed toys, and ask myself, "When will my Prince Charming come?" It may seem childish but most of the girls might have asked themselves this question at least once in their life. So I ask you right now, when will you come?You know, sometimes I feel that you won't ever arrive. That I'm just going to wait and wait until I can't anymore. But maybe that's just my impatience dominating me. Or maybe that's my hunger for affection and attention from someone that's not in the family or in my circle of friends. I don't know. I just hope you're on your way to me. I'm going to wait here for you to lift me up and twirl me around as we laugh until our jaws ache.
When I was a little kid, I'm just like every other little girl- reading about Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, oh, you know those stuffs- those fairytales that make little girls' eyes shine like pretty stars. The stories that make us believe about magic and happy endings. Oh yes, I was innocent when I was a little girl. I believed all of them. There's this perfect prince for a princess.But somehow, never in those times that I've imagined myself being a princess and having a prince. In short, I never imagined having a crush on a boy my age. I don't know why. And I never asked myself why either. I'm just happy and contented about the stories I read over and over again. Again, I was innocent.Ha, but I guess when we meet, dude, you'll never believe me when I tell you that, huh? I imagine you teasing me and ruffling my hair while laughing and telling me to "Get real!" Oh, I would just stuck my tongue out and playfully punch your arm and tell you "I hate you!" even though I'm far away into feeling that.
Dude, but of course, things change over time. When I entered elementary, I was shy. I'm quiet. It's hard to believe that I was once that girl who's sitting in the corner, watching quietly from afar as my classmates play and interact. But again, somehow, I never felt alone. I have my family with me. My cousins are my friends and I still get to laugh and play with them when I get home.But when I finally did gain some friends in school, that was the time that my mind opened up into something foreign. Oh, boys. My girl friends would giggle when they see the boys they like and I would just nod and smile, not really understanding what they were feeling.Oh, I let it go. But curiosity is normal in a child's life. I observed my friends. Why do they turn red when the boy arrives? Why do they giggle and turn shy when he's around?I wouldn't understand what a 'crush' meant until it happened to me. Years in elementary school, I finally experienced the giggles and the blushes. I finally understood why they turn shy.And then I reached high school. There's a difference now. There are dances and parties that would force you to look pretty in front of the boy you like. There are a lot more chances to be with him. There's going to be more Valentine cards, roses and chocolates.And as part of teenage life, my appearance became important. Somehow, I became self-conscious as if I need to impress. And my personality became different. I became talkative, I became more interactive. I'm just...different.
But you know what I realized? It's not going to important when I'm going to be with you. Although you haven't been my first dance or my first prom date, I know that you're going to be a simple guy who's going to spend the rest of his life with me.
Although, I can't promise that I'm going to be perfect. Like any other normal person out there, I have flaws. I know that I'm going to annoy the shit out of you and I know that I'm going to amuse you to no end with my weird random outburst like "Mcdo! Love ko 'to!" and I'll probably punch you out of nowhere because I think you're cute.
But I do promise to be your best friend, your mother, your father, your sister, your brother, your maid, haha. Kidding aside though, I promise to be by your side whenever something bad happens to you. Whenever you have a bad day, I'm going to be a listening ear. Whenever you want to cry, yes, dude, I don't want you to hide your emotions from me, I'm going to be the shoulder you'll lean on. Whenever you need encouragement, I'm going to hold your hand and squeeze it until your nerves calm down.
Just a warning though, I love hugs and I'm sure I'll crush you whenever we embrace. I hate horror movies so if ever you're going to bring me to the movies and it's going to be in that genre, be sure to have a box of napkins and a blanket with you. And oh, prepare your arm with my iron grip. Haha, so are you still going to attempt to watch horror movies with me? Kidding!
I imagine us having fun together.
Whenever we feel like it, we would make funny faces in front of the camera and capture every bits of it. We'll have it developed and we'll make the walls a giant collage of our pictures.
I will call you corny names whenever I stare at you and think you're adorable.
I wouldn't just cook by myself. You'll be the one who I'll force to cook dishes with. And when our project food fails, we'll laugh it off. We're just going to order a large pizza and we'll get fat together in front of the TV.
I also imagine us lying under the stars with intertwined fingers. We gaze at the glittering sky as we tell each other our wishes and dreams.
And during rainy days, since we're both weirdos, instead of staying inside the house, we'll go outside and run in the rain together. We'll play tag and of course, you're going to be 'it'. Haha!
However, during chilly evenings after the rain, we're going to stay inside and share a blanket while we drink hot coco and share stories about our childhood.
I'm going to try my best to surprise you in every occasion we'll have together and of course, I'm going to try my best to be friends with your whole family.
I know that our time together would be beyond amazing. I'll respect your time with your friends and you'll respect mine. Our relationship will be balanced and we're going to stay strong through all the obstacles God will give us.
We'll have crazy adventures as we travel around the world. We'll go to famous places but in each foreign place, we're going to find a simple spot that's going to be special to just the two of us.
Dude, always bear in mind that I will love you for you and not for what you have or what you've accomplished. I won't expect you to do the same things I will because I'm sure you're going to make me happy no matter what.
To you who I know have already ridden his horse on his way to me, I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and wait until you arrive. Somehow, whether or not I already know you, we're going to spend the rest of our lives together as we color the whole world. Let me tell you that I just can't wait for those bittersweet adventures, me being your imperfect princess and you being my imperfect prince.
Magic. I'm sure we're going to have that. And our happy ending, too.
Love,
Me
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